Zen: but i so crave that life alone 08:00:26
Zen: my heart 08:00:32
Zen: needs a life of work 08:00:47
Zen: the horse must run 08:00:55
Zen: and i must master 08:01:00
Zen: this realm 08:01:09
Zen: i do not care for whatever weakness besets me 08:01:37
Zen: i am beyond it 08:01:47
Zen: i must be 08:01:51
Bliss: have you ever ridden a horse i have and its great 08:01:52
Zen: lol 08:01:55
Zen: i have not 08:01:57
Bliss: wish i could do it again 08:02:00
Bliss: it almost killed me but i would do it again 08:02:18
Zen: I knew a woman in my union who was a horse rider who got bucked and seriously injured 08:02:54
Zen: certainly scared me 08:02:59
Zen: but she was tough as nails 08:03:03
Zen: I miss her 08:03:11
Zen: She doesn't work with us anymore 08:03:23
Zen: got parkinsons 08:03:36
Zen: rather early in her life tbh 08:03:46
Zen: 50's 08:03:56
Bliss: i ended up underneath a horse because the saddle wasn't on tight enough and the instructor did not believe me and it shattered my lower spine 08:04:10
Zen: I believe it was something similar 08:04:26
Bliss: i was told i would never walk again and then for some reason i did it anyway 08:04:26
Bliss: they never could figure out why or how tbh 08:04:40
Zen: What's with doctors and telling people they will never walk again 08:04:53
Zen: ]im like 08:04:54
Zen: bro you don't think for a second 08:05:00
Zen: a miracle could happen 08:05:08
Bliss: thats what they told me 08:05:45
Bliss: and i was like ok whatever 08:05:51
Zen: thats me 08:19:57
Bliss: did you really come in on a different divice to rp gamzee. 08:21:15
Zen: I have multiple browserws 08:21:29
Bliss: fair 08:21:39
Zen: on my compputer 08:21:40
Zen: this is the brave browser alt 08:21:46
Bliss: aight then 08:25:13
Bliss: you just did not vwant to do the extra quirk vwork im guessing 08:25:33
Zen: bro 08:33:40
Zen: write a whole speech in gamzees text 08:33:48
Zen: no fucking way 08:33:52
Bliss: bro just fucking falls out the sky 08:34:10
Zen: gamzee is the character who that would happen to! 08:34:27
Zen: and hes like 08:34:44
Zen: "bruh" 08:34:46
Bliss: have the fish 08:37:51
Bliss: i am running out of braincells yay 08:38:02
Bliss: vwhat kinda gamzee are u fuckin playing bro 08:41:19
Bliss: lmao 08:41:20
Zen: hes rap battling 08:44:50
Bliss: bro i cant rap battle for shit 08:45:17
Zen: lol 08:45:53
Zen: cronus is like "bro why is this guy coming at me" 08:46:05
Bliss: correct 08:47:44
Zen: if there is any troll who is troll johnny knoxville 08:53:18
Zen: ]its cronus 08:53:21
Bliss: bro i dont care for jackass but yea 08:54:37
Zen: me neither 08:55:12
Zen: +2 08:55:15
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Zen: yo 06:42:32
Bliss: ayo 06:44:50
Bliss: i am still a bit woozy oof 06:46:08
Zen: same 07:02:13
Zen: i got work in like 8 hours 07:02:18
Zen: but i took a long nap so im not that tired 07:02:22
Bliss: fair 07:02:36
Bliss: slept a total of 17 hours 07:02:48
Bliss: still tired 07:02:53
Zen: that happens to me sometimes 07:03:22
Zen: wake up feeling like i just entered a new dimension 07:03:31
Zen: "Oh shit I'm back here again... feels like I've been here before. Oh thats right I'm zen again!" 07:03:47
Zen: "where was I?" 07:03:51
Zen: instantly forget the entire timeline of the 15 different fully lived lives i dreamt through 07:04:12
Bliss: i just kill myself in most dreams and no i don't have control it just happens a lot 07:05:38
Bliss: its just be like that sometimes 07:05:52
Zen: Yes that happens to me sometimes 07:12:36
Zen: It used to be quite frequent 07:12:44
Bliss: same but now i have happier dreams i think 07:13:01
Bliss: though usually they end with me killing someone or just pure confusion 07:13:15
Zen: Hyperfixating on some of the dreams will make them recurr 07:13:23
Zen: It is best to let them go 07:13:31
Zen: Unless they are good dreams 07:13:36
Zen: Then you will be disappointed to wake up 07:13:45
Zen: So it is best to let them go 07:13:50
Bliss: i dont hyperfixate on dreams its just trauma 07:14:01
Bliss: i have no control over the trauma so i just let them happen 07:14:19
Zen: lol its not like im saying to find a way to lucid dream 07:14:49
Zen: I read in some teachings that it is best to let go of those types of dreams 07:15:10
Zen: Dreams as a concept are good to have, but those nightmares and whatnot are best to allow it to pass 07:15:28
Bliss: i actually prefer my nightmares more than my dreams 07:15:46
Bliss: my dreams are confusing and irrational my nightmares are straight forward and calming 07:16:03
Bliss: i just exist the way i do whether its conventional or not 07:17:05
Zen: I believe if you feel comfort in one realm and confusion in the other, that would make the latter a nightmare 07:17:28
Zen: and the former, the dream 07:17:33
Bliss: i was always told that confusion was the better option and not considered a 'nightmare' 07:18:26
Zen: perception 07:19:00
Zen: concepts kids idealize become nightmarish to adults 07:19:26
Zen: all the chaos 07:19:31
Zen: i never liked it 07:19:36
Zen: unless i was the catalyst 07:19:44
Bliss: i think the reason i consider the 'dreams' more over dreams than nightmares is because they could be considered pleasant to the majority as they only involve confusing aspects and just the pure fact the only reason they get confusing is they are constantly changing and moving where i cannot bound myself to one spot for a long time, it's always sudden and disorienting then i have to start from what i know and don't and continue in the stream of the new area i had just been thrown into at random. 07:22:20
Bliss: basically it's like if i was bounced around like a fucking ball in the bubbles from one point to another without a single say and it was a constant 07:22:57
Bliss: i could be drinking tea with someone only to be thrown into a new enviroment with a random person who is adamant i was there the whole time. only to then move to the next one with someone i know and then thrown into a pit 07:24:07
Zen: Yeah I think typically there are a lot of weird dimensional visions associated with dreams 07:35:10
Zen: It could be seeing somebody like you die 07:35:16
Zen: Somebody completely different 07:35:20
Zen: Weird sex 07:35:23
Zen: Being in love 07:35:34
Zen: I used to have a lot of fighting dreams 07:35:40
Zen: Not having control over things is rather jarring 07:35:58
Zen: I think, as you become more associated with mystical phenomenon, your mind improvises 07:37:37
Zen: I'm not sure how to describe it 07:37:55
Zen: I don't think too heavily about things 07:38:05
Bliss: i understand what you mean 07:38:11
Zen: Well I do, but about different things. 07:38:13
Zen: I think very heavily about implications of peoples actions and their rhetorics 07:38:26
Zen: My own 07:38:32
Zen: What should matter, and what I should do to be the best version of myself 07:38:50
Zen: I think now in dreams you can throw my conscious into a lot of situations and I try to go with the flow 07:39:11
Zen: but I still want to push the current 07:39:18
Bliss: i think the problem with me and 'dreams' and my nightmares is that deep down i am both good and bad and no matter what i do to claw my way out of the darkness its just a never ending flow of unfortunate circumstances and in order to process it i end up going through every single process at the same time only to enjoy the nightmares more as it feels like a more controlled environment even if the whole goal to begin with was never about control or even the fact i don't care about changing and learning and growing it's more about safety i think 07:41:48
Bliss: which for a lot of people they don't think the way i do 07:42:04
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Bliss: ayo 07:42:26
??: shit this is my firefox browser 07:42:42
Bliss: lmao 07:42:46
??: let me know if you reply to the other rp 07:42:50
Bliss: will do it might be tomorrow though honestly 07:43:05
??: ok 07:43:09
??: im gonna get drunk and play video games for an hour 07:43:24
??: and then sleep 07:43:26
??: for work at 8am 07:43:33
Bliss: i have been so woozy so i'm only able to bang out random shit 07:43:34
Bliss: aight have a good day at work dude 07:43:42
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Bliss: have fun with games and drunk 07:43:52
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Zen: damn 09:10:49
Zen: just got pked by some asshole 09:10:54
Zen: playerkilled 09:10:57
Bliss: f 09:13:32
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Zen: i dont want to go to work 04:44:42
Zen: ahhhhyhhhhhh 04:44:46
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Bliss: ello 03:51:31
Zen: whaddup 04:02:21
Zen: downloading a game right now at 1.5mbs a second 04:02:36
Zen: fml 04:02:38
Zen: 60gbs 04:02:51
Zen: shuld I wait for psii to reply? 04:03:09
Zen: i don't want to be rude 04:03:13
Bliss: idk man whatever you wanna do 04:14:49
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Zen: oh hey you're back 01:19:53
Zen: yeah psii was here like all day 01:19:59
Zen: I guess we could have had a dialogue 01:20:07
Zen: I kinda wanted to wait 01:20:14
Zen: But he left a few hours ago 01:21:12
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Bliss: murdered on sight 02:13:43
>:v hakai 02:17:39
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