Thursday 14 September 2023

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CJ: We 2zzzaw Eachother? ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:10:32

CJ: I'm Ju2zzzt |=|_|!^9 With You, I'm 2zzztill Thinking About It. Al2zzzo No, Unle2zzz2zzz You Find 2zzzomeone Getting Lightly 2zzzunburned On Their Way To Their Dorm Intere2zzzting. ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:15:31

> You've been doing some people watching during your time away from the memo. Being inside all day gets boring. 04:16:01

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] NΘt in the mΘΘd ₣Θr that sΘrt Θ₣ thing. 04:16:29

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] Just making sure nΘthing happened while I'm gΘne. 04:17:01

CJ: Gone? ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:17:40

CJ: Cool ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:18:47

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] It's prΘven tΘ be anything ₣ucking but cΘΘl. 04:19:40

CJ: Oh? What Went 2zzzo Terribly Wrong ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:20:10

CJ: 2zzzpecific ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:22:23

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] NΘt wΘrth the mentiΘn. I'll handle it eventually. 04:23:15

CJ: Everything I2zzz Worth A Mention When You Have Nothing 2 Talk About ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:23:38

((brb doggos need a walk and i have ze munchies 04:24:06

(walk them GOOOOD 04:24:34

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((Sorry avocado egg toast was callin my name 04:56:56

CJ: Okay Then ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:57:04

CJ: What 2zzzhould The Topic Change Me ᴮᶻᶻ! 04:57:12

((*be 04:57:14

((*bee 04:57:18

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[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] Whatever yΘu ₣eel like talking abΘut is better than nΘt talking with yΘu. 05:02:17

((one second my egg just came on my hand 05:05:24

(your egg WHAT 05:06:49

> Excuse me what the actual fuck is that. What is that supposed to mean? What?? 05:07:12

CJ: What ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:07:15

((did i stutter 05:07:22

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(I was hoping you h a d 05:12:22

CJ: No ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:12:59

CJ: No Were Going Back ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:13:04

CJ: What Do You Mean It2zzz Better Than Not Talking With U2zzz? ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:13:20

CJ: Ugh? ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:14:54

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] NΘt making a cryptic puℤℤle Θver here, it's exactly what it sΘunds like. 05:15:40

CJ: Oay What Doe2zzz It 2zzzound Like 2 You? ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:16:06

> You are really trying to interpret this but you aren't sure you want to. 05:16:56

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] It means I DΘN'T CARE WHAT WE TALK ABΘUT AS LΘNG AS I'M TALKING TΘ YΘU. 05:17:53

> God why is everyone just SO- 05:18:08

CJ: Why Do You Want 2 Talk 2 U2zzz ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:19:03

> If it isn't one thing it's another. You can NOT stand this mess anymore. 05:19:30

> How are you supposed to forget about the most concerning statement you've heard this week? 05:19:31

CJ: Becau2zzze We Want 2 Know ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:19:51

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] This ₣eels like sΘmething I prΘbably already answered be₣Θre. 05:20:21

CJ: No ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:20:36

CJ: You Haven't ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:20:41

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] Mmm very sure I've said I like talking tΘ yΘu at least ΘNCE be₣Θre. 05:21:23

CJ: Nope ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:21:43

CJ: Okay ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:24:28

CJ: Didn't Have 2 Make A Big Deal About It ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:24:35

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[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] That's the reasΘn, want tΘ get anymΘre prΘbing Θut Θ₣ the way while I'm here? 05:27:22

CJ: We Could Keep Pre2zzz2zzzing On About Thi2zzz If You Want ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:27:55

CJ: What You Want 2 Do ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:29:51

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] I am already talking tΘ yΘu, already dΘing what I want. 05:35:24

CJ: You're Thi2zzz Clo2zzze 2 What? ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:36:01

CJ: You 2zzzaid We Could Talk About Whatever We Wanted ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:38:17

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] And yΘu want tΘ talk abΘut me Θn the verge Θ₣ killing sΘmeΘne? 05:38:56

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] Sure we can talk abΘut me kicking sΘmeΘne's chest Θpen. 05:39:15

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] YΘu knΘw, I've never crushed a beating pusher in my hands be₣Θre, maybe I'm meant tΘ. 05:39:53

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] YΘu knΘw what I always wanted tΘ dΘ? Break sΘmeΘne's arms Θ₣₣. 05:40:50

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] NΘt cut them, nΘ, I'm gΘ tΘ grab their arms press my ₣ΘΘt intΘ their back and pull. 05:41:20

> Oh crap, you're lurking now. This is a rather... fucked up development you're watching 05:41:20

CJ: Breaking 2zzzomeone2zzz Arm2zzz Off Take2zzz A Lot Of Effort ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:41:29

CJ: Gog2zzzpeed ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:41:32

> Wow he's worse than you thought! 05:41:57

CJ: And Why Would You Like 2 Commit Numerou2zzz Act2zzz Of Violence? ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:42:17

CJ: You 2zzzure? ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:45:13

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] As sure as yΘu are abΘut staying cΘΘped up in that blΘck all the time. 05:46:00

CJ: I Get Out ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:46:12

CJ: Ju2zzzt Not When You're Looking ᴮᶻᶻ! 05:46:30

[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533654441985/20200406_004856.jpg][color=#960e99][u]I[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/723708453922537492/1134155533323075584/20200412_032501.jpg][color=#960e99][u]G[/u][/color][/url][url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/1040866233496649789/1136550068409864312/20230803_024153.jpg][color=#960e99][u]:[/u][/color][/url] YΘu stick with yΘur thing and I'll gΘ kill sΘme peΘple Θr whatever. 05:47:45

[color=#626262]~~[/color] incongruousGrandeur[IG] [color=#626262]is now an idle troll ~~[/color] 05:47:54

CM: 『 ... 』 05:50:14

> You can't do this 'other people' thing. You do NOT want to do this anymore. 05:50:30

CM: 『 what the fuck 』 05:53:17

> What an interaction. That was singlehandedly worrying as fuck! You step away from your computer to pace and consider every new point. He isn't acting dead inside anymore, but he's also being really violent. You aren't sure which way this tips the scales. Is this an improvement? For now. No. But also be like the stages of grief, anger before acceptance. You frown, why are you spending your freetime worrying about an online acquaintances wellbeing? Why does said acquaintance spend his worrying about you? You can see the puzzle coming together but you turn away, time to get back to work. You sit down at the keyboard and stop futzing around. You do leave the chat open just in case though. 05:53:17

CM: 『 I feel like a fucked it big time 』 05:59:37

CM: 『 CJ, you still around? Idk what to do 』 06:04:48

CJ: Yeah ᴮᶻᶻ! 06:06:20

CM: 『 Do you like... have any advice? 』 06:08:27

CJ: On? ᴮᶻᶻ! 06:08:32

CM: 『 this! all this, idk what to do I feel like a fucked this all up and re wired them 』 06:10:51

CJ: What Did You Do? ᴮᶻᶻ! 06:11:05

CM: 『 I caused a spiral of events by sparring with his room mate, blanca 』 06:13:11

CJ: Okay? ᴮᶻᶻ! 06:13:40

CM: 『 i caused something funk to happen in their pan and endangered them, but i took them to the right person though, got them help 』 06:15:28

CM: 『 but i didnt tell them 』 06:15:38

CJ: I'm Going 2 Need More Detail ᴮᶻᶻ! 06:17:01

CM: 『 I cant 』 06:17:14

CJ: Okay ᴮᶻᶻ! 06:17:19

CM: 『 not like this atleast 』 06:17:23

CM: 『 idk, i just feel like i caused this 』 06:23:53

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> "i followed you because i was mad you were upset about the wrong thing, but now that i see the whole picture... i just want to curl up and die and be forgoten. im an ass, you deserve your happy moment but then i go up and do... THIS? i thought i was proving a point but now i just want to leave you to your business before i ruin everything again. i didnt know, i didnt know, i didnt know..." 06:50:47

> You lob your palmhusk in the sand, sclera starting to deepen and bleed into that bright scarlet color. Every FIBER of this fucking universe wants to make you- JUST- from THEM doing THIS and THE MEMO DOING [i]THAT[/i], your grip on their arm fastens. You [i]SHOULD[/i] punch their head into a teal and oil paste to a sift through their pan to find what the ACTUAL FUCK is wrong with them. Why stop there? Go stomp open Tobira's head like a stupid grape and search for answers in whatever remains there too and why take CJ by their stupid horns and peel their head in half to collect a straightforward answer from the remnants of their splayed pan? Who the hell would stop you? You shut your eyes tightly as your free hand reared back, getting set to deliver a haymaker that well leave among the stars in [i]spirit and thought alone...[/i] but alas that punch never comes. Your tears are too heavy- your body is too heavy- whatever is left in your husk of body is absolutely swamped and anchored down.[br] [br]Your hand shakes and twitches with so much as you hold them firm in your grasp. [i]Who are you?[/i] You unclench your fist and pull them close into your chest, placing your other hand on the back of their head. Your pusherbeat was irratic and was beating so hard and fast that sometimes it seemed it would skip a few just to beat 8 times more, "...just relax... I've got you.." 07:08:33

> "no... please... you deserve your happy moment, just... let me die as i am... with me being an arrogant prick" you cant fight them, and even if you could, what would you do? you ruined this for him, you ruined EVERYTHING, WHY DO YOU GET TO LIVE?! you let your tears fall but it means nothing. YOU DONT DESERVE ANYTHING, what the hell made you think otherwise?! 07:19:37

> "..." you pat the stroke the hair on the back of their hair. It's hard to dial back your mind- you're so far gone in the inky black of your husk that you don't see a way.. but you manage to forge your own, slowly opening your eyes- they were still scarlet, but it was fine... you could manage it, "It's my fault anyways.. it's fine.." you could feel the strain on your head- what is any of this? You don't know... you pull them away from you to get a good look at their face again. 07:31:07

> "no..." you see him look into your eyes and see what you have done, full scope "please... i cant live knowing i did this to you, i CANT, i..." you are a sobbing mess, with enough void dripping out of your eyes to make a river. if you could you would have already deleted your memory, maybe finished and ended your story right here right now "i CANT, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DELETED, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN STUCK BACK IN THAT LAB, I..." 07:41:46

> *crack* oh would y-you look at that, y-you cracked your eye just with your desire to perish, h-how fun, m-maybe the void flowing out will kill you 07:43:52

> "You don't want that.." endless rivers just constantly gushing for her eyes... that sound was less than favorable. You part some of her hair out of the way, careful not to touch any of... whatever this strange substance coming out of her eyes is. Yeah... it's your fault, which makes it your probiem... "Tell me what you [i]really[/i] want- or [i]need[/i]..." You let out a hefty sigh, your tears had began to listen, but the pools innyour eyes threaten to spill any moment. You survey their face and body, taking in anything that looked like a wound. You... aren't a mechanic or an engineer, which is why you left well enough alone, but you can still try... anything, ".. I'll do whatever you want... you just need to ask.." 07:49:58

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> "i..." what do you want? you want to DIE but your killswitch has been shut off. you... you... "*sigh* w-water?" its not like you can do anything in this state anyway 07:57:10

> Water's as good place as any to start. You look around and spot your bag, dragging it over to you with one arm and unzipping it. Of course you packed sustenance for your travels, you just chose not to use any. You pulled out a bottle. Takes a bit of effort, but eventually you unscrew the cap and hold the bottle up to her lips, "...I... hm.." you aren't sure how much more of anything you can take right now... " ..well I said I'd protect you so that's what I'll do.." 08:04:45

> you try holding the bottle yourself but damn, if all this blood was in you, you would totally do that "but that dosent matter anymore i just... if at every turn it seems fate wants me dead, then there has to be a reason, right?! you have spent too much energy on me, i know that now, so now im... done, and maybe you will get a better blockmate next time" 08:13:34

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> You set the bottle down, snuggling it into the sand by twisting it a bit to give it a groove to stand in, "You're going to be fine... I've just been doing a bad job as usual.." you aren't sure what to do with them, other than... you just don't know. Here they are, even though you wanted to be left alone, all the way out here and you aren't even certain why they're so worked up over [i]you[/i]. You're nobody. "Just... keep telling me things you want. I'll try my best to make it up to you.." 08:21:09

> "i... just need to sit here and recover a bit, thats all" maybe if they leave you can find yourself a way to off yourself, or just crawl away, one or the other 08:29:27

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> Here? There's nothing here but the cove, but if you can get them out- you can get them to a hotel so they can rest somewhere properly. You can't go the way you came, but you can get [i]around[/i] it with some help- or you could... no, she's not in any condition to do that. "Hmm.. I'll get us a block.." you put the cap back on the water and put it back in your bag. You cradle her and get up to your feet- oh- you ended up nearly collapsing back down to your knees but manage to keep yourself up. You were weak from... everything and the cost you're paying is detrimental, but you can go on for a bit longer. You kneel down and take a moment to sling your bag back on your shoulder and reclaim your palmhusk and pocket it.[br] [br]You look them in the face- you still look pained, but it's a bit more leveled. You really messed up this time... of course you did. 08:39:36

> you say nothing, maybe he cant see the death in your eyes if you look away "sure... anything to get you back to what you want to do i guess" 08:42:46

> you're still with the grubbies and mate... wonder how Blanca's stealth op is going 08:43:57

(( i dont know, let me roll to see if her training has payed off 08:46:57

(( she is about 50% better now 08:47:55

> "...I think. I just want to spend time with you for a while." What does that even mean to you? You don't know. You walk over to your dad who had taken to meditating. You hiss his language with a few guttural chimes and he responds in kind, leaning his head down, giving you the opportunity to climb on his noggin again. You take a seat with her cradled in your arms, you can't help but look at her... all the damage you've cost. Shameful... 08:48:39

> "no... please... dont pity me..." no no NO, you cant let this happen, he has to get back, you NEED to give him this at least, its the most you can do to unburden him 08:52:17

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> Pity, huh?.. Why would you pity them? You don't feel bad because of their unfortunate state of being... you feel bad because you know it's your fault that- "Someone I [u]care[/u] about is hurting, and it's because I haven't been good to them..." you sit her up in your lap, setting your bag down beside you, you remove your shirt. You ball it up and take considerate wipes at the blood on her, "I don't want you to hurt anymore. It's okay... I'll be fine. I'm concerned about you." 08:58:48

> "thats the problem! i dont want you to be concerned, i want you to LIVE, and you cant do that if im here, i need to leave!" static takes over your eyes, and though the bleeding has stopped, the void seeps yet 09:05:28

> You let out an exhausted sigh, leaning down and pressing your forehead to hers, "Calm down." You don't think you can do anything about that tar stuff, but you'll just keep her comfortable while Father effortlessly weaves through the water, going along the rock formation to find the edge, "I can live with you around.. for now though, can me being alive just be enough for you..? Just for a while longer?" Your skin is frosty as usual, the heat coming from her was soothing for you amd you can't help rubbyour cheek against hers as you hug her close. 09:13:23

> you take some deep breaths "alright..." you are burning up but the press of his cool skin was soothing to say the least. you lean into the hug best you can 09:16:08

> You stifle back that feeling- it was probably just a delusion brought on from the flurry of emotions that overtook you no more than a minute or two ago. You simply keep snuggling up to her, "It's alright.. you'll be okay, I'll make sure of it." 09:23:11

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> what if you... no its dumb, you could never, not after all this... wait no why are you leANING CLOSER NO NOW IS NOT THE TIM- too late, you lean in for a kiss and SOMEHOW land it, what ever happens next is your fault 09:26:49

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> Your are.. well you guess you could say 'content' or 'complacent' with how things were going at this very moment. Before you even realized it, you were entangled in a lip lock with them. It was nice, but you felt the need to stop yourself,"Mmf-" you pull back from the kiss, looking them in the eyes with an apprehensive glance. You quickly break the contact between your gander orbs by looking off to the side and to the water your Dad surfs upon, clearing your throat a smidgen, before looking back at her, "Uhhh... are you feeling alright?" 09:37:09

> as you recoil from the realization of what just happened, you look away and to the sea, you would be blushing but... you dont have enough blood to do that "my pan is fuzzy, i feel terrible but..." she looks back to him "im so happy i could see the real you" 09:41:29

> "Um. Right..." was that you? The you from before? No... you don't think so. You don't feel it- your soul is not present to you. Whatever thos was was probably... a temporary influx of residual essence or something... still a husk, just with a few extra features for a little bit, but you shouldn't say anything about that, "Mhm... and that just now was for... what exactly..?" 09:45:31

> "i... dont know, it didnt feel appropriate, but it felt... right? i might just be on the fritz" you look down "besides, everyone wants you, what makes me any different?" 09:52:26

> "Ah- hey that's not true-" who is [i]everyone[/i]? You're that special- you're just... you know- some guy. You wouldn't know the first thing about how that sort of attention feels, "I'm not all that popular.." it just felt right to them.. hm. Hm. It didn't seem... all that bad, but you really aren't too sure how okay they are, "But if it felt okay for you then, I'm.. willing to go along with it." You wonder where this 'everybody' wants you notion is coming from; Frankly, you don't see it. 09:58:14

> "well, you seem like the man to not have many enemy's, and friends abound for days, and i guess i wanted to be a part of that as well, though i seem to have bit off more than i can chew..." 10:05:24

> You really aren't privy to whatever it is they're talking about. 'Friends abound for days'? After how irritated the memo made you to blow up, that most certainly isn't true- you kicked her and Tobira to the curb, just an all around asshole is what you are... "Mm.. I wouldn't say that.." you decide to return the favor and plant a kiss right back on her lips. Equivalent exchange or something. 10:11:18

> "alright im speaking out of my ass, i just... all this needs time, and patience, so... lets give all this stuff a minute to breath, everything is tense and we need things to calm down for once" 10:18:20

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> You shrug as you look ahead to check your Dad's progress. Hm... it shouldn't be TOO much longer before you reach an area to go around this thing, "Uh huh..." you shake your head wearily to fend off a few thoughts and turn your attention back to her, "I mean yeah.. I don't know what exactly you mean, but giving everything a chance to simmer down works for me." You use a hand to rub at your eyes, they're both still... yeah. Red. You can't just ignore all of... you don't know- this aggression? Passion? Vexation? Whatever it is, it's hard to drop.. it's not the same as when they'd jostled you around and cut it on by accident. Without your soul to make sense of this all you just... don't know... "You don't have to say anything if you don't want to, but... Did you- was I-... umm.. were you really as [i]afraid[/i] of me as I vaguely remember..?" 10:28:41

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> "afraid? yes, but not in a physical sense, i was confused, i thought you were angry over the fact i was now not a slave to the system i was made with, and i didnt know why. it took some thinking but i think i understand" she looks over to the horizon "you dont like picking sides do you?" 10:35:23

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> "I just..." you literally do not know what to tell them, "Am concerned for your safety. If you have those sentiments or thoughts or whatever else, that's... fine I guess, but it's a serious breach of your wellbeing to just... do something like that and almost get you erased-" why are you crying again? You didn't feel the need to, yet you're doing it anyway, "Everything's very complicated, that's all there is to it." You have to nestle against their face to steal more of that warmth, you're in a lot of pain and you guess that's what you get for just... going and going with no real stopping in sight. You ultimately didn't answer the question, but you don't care about that- you care about them. 10:48:04

> "well... its not like we could tell it was going to happen until it was too late, besides... i have a back up as we speak. still... lets wait for the water to settle... we have a lot of work to do we can worry about later" 10:50:53

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